Things are wierd now, people are acting differently, i can't tell now if people wanna give up drinking and drugs for awhile, or are just doing it cuz i said i want to, either way, im not impressed. Maybe i want to drink, i don't know, i don't think i want to join your club, it feels like a cult, im scared and lonely too... the old man said... haha..... CAPITAL 8 ruled.......


Mom knows i was down the other day, but she had to come home when i was screaming/singing to the i don't want to be me song that i so love... yeah so then she had a talk with me, and now is being nice
grandparents being nice, everyone being nice, i dont' like it...
i don't like feeling wierd or this...

Im happy now, but its a fake happiness cuz its wierd




METAL NATHAN needs to return, im going ot lose my title and nickname as metal head come next semester fuck

p.s. im getting paid 20 bucks a day to FLOOR sit.. lol..... not baby sit, not house sit, floor sit, someone come and keep me entertained for this so it can be the best 20 bucks a day i've ever made... cuz parents will be gone, and house will suck.. and i have the nights free when this happens
Party party party... or hanging out hanging out hanging out...

ooo yeah ppss.. effyou.. whatever.... i can't give up alcohol, i went 8 weeks without, if you'd all like i can get a bottle of absinth and the biggest bottle of jager again, and fuck my stomach up and give up alcohol again for another 8 weeks, but other than that, im known as drunk nathan, and we all know how upset people got with sober nathan, and how freaky and sketchy he got. I got a reputation to keep and friends i need to keep and booze is the only way.


Our father in heaven, thou will be our name!